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    I have MOVEE
    6:08 PM

    Hey guys,

    i have currently moved to on sugar, no worries all my memories are imported there too , so my link is http://livin-in-my-world.onsugar.com/

    Thanks guys

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    Rachel


    blogger is back
    8:38 PM

    Blogger is back to it's old mode, that means i can upload pic, anyway the reason for an unpublished profile is , i have yet to get a good profile pic, someone do a photo shoot for me. OH WELL.

    My sept hols starts yesterday, Exciting you may think.
    NOT a single bit, all the studying and , mugging , but seriously last 3 weeks le, just mug it ovevr and later party like siao. Gonna let the wild child come out of me man. i miss my altered-ego.

    have been having the urge to dye my hair red, like copper red.But i figure if i dye my hair red. I would not sing publically. If not i may get compared to hailey. which is not something good.I want my old hair back.

    My birthday day was like the weirdest birthday i ever had.The night before,i unknowlingly put a pillow behind half of my pillow, the next morning, half my head hurts. Reached school, first lesson, PE= Tennis. I got smack by the tennis ball real hard. I was telling Sarah, i got birthday bashed. After that i felt high and my head felt like i had a hangover. What a sucky feeling.

    When back to EVSS, miss Mrs Ng, Mr Goh and Mrs Chua. Talked to Mrs Ng, she is awesome, i love her, she made me like maths. I miss her lessons , all the dirty jokes, all the funny nick names( i dun take them to heart). She used to call me turkey brain. I would laugh it off. She is a awesome teacher, very comical.

    After that me and XInyi headed out to orchad road, to shop stuff like that , had fish and CO for dinner with my family. Oh dang, can't upload pics

    I will upload another day

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    Rachel



    helpless
    12:42 AM

    the feeling of helplessness engulf me
    as i strugle to do the right thing
    i hate this feeling i hate asking for help
    yet i am compell to do so eveytime

    I swear i dun understand anything on my differentiation worksheet. Everytime i have to ask for help. I hate this stupid feeling, i hate feeling helpless, like i can't get anything right.

    Oh well

    On a lighter note
    Happy birthday to myself

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    Rachel


    I have been considering
    3:53 PM

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    This few days and week have been very trying for me. It is very tiring to sleep for 4 hours and then wake up to continue on with more of school and work,i really need a life, i desperately wanna go shopping one of the days. Hopefully sept hols, anyway Blogger is having it's own issues and maybe i should change to live journal or something like that but on the other hand i can't bear to leave 5 years of written history aside and cancel them away, i am really considering changing to another service provider. Oh well wait around and see

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    Rachel


    Is it you, the one i have been waiting for?
    8:33 PM

    Each time i stare into those eyes of your
    the spark that i get, wipes away all your flaws
    leaving me to regret once more

    that marks one chapter to my life, anyway i have not post for very long.i am so sorry. anyway my life has been quite screwed with teachers and parents hounding me for homework and doing extra work, i am trying to organize my life now in order.

    My recent achievements
    - 2U, 3S and 1E for mid terms
    - 4U,1S and 1E for mid terms
    - completed a mini triathalon
    - had my first E learning (after a thousands of year)
    - Met new people
    - sign up for another 5 km Great eastern woman's run

    I think this is what happen recently in my life, anyway blogger the toolbar is changing , which is bad

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    Rachel


    fats
    9:32 PM

    Hi

    I think all my life, my fats have bothered me, they are like a constant nightmare I cannot get rid off, sometimes I wish I could wake up and see myself being normal again. I have always read bout ppl who would get eating disorders and I told myself that that would never happen to me. I love food too much to give it up. Even though I am excercising now, I just put on more weight than lose it. Times like this mak Me feel like being aneroxic. I mean. If it makes me look better why. Yet it is tough, maybe one day I will fall down that path but not today,bacause of my looks and size, I have really given up a lot of things mentally, I guess in this superficial world,you won't anything with a beautiful heart, cause peoplelook at you from your outside.This has bothered me all my life, and if given a chance i will get rid of it once and for all, that is why I would go for plastic surgey if given a chance to. I just give up.

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    Rachel


    Wild Child
    11:46 PM

    Hey,

    Recently have been quite coop up, things are happening and i feel like a freaking no lifer, the best part are all the parties tempting me all this while. First butterfactory , now St james powerstation. The best part, My wild side is coming out very soon, Everytime i party once during my hols, it is a night that i really enjoy all that and go crazy with the music that bring my feet along. I mean now i wanna do this stuff, i have people to stop me all over and not go with me.

    Even though i hold a goody goody 2 shoes rept, i still have my wild side, to do everything crazy for once . Not my best rept, but i love the thrills and the fun of it, living on the high life. I will still come back down . Just one night all i am asking. now a simply stay out is no longer as good as it was. somehow people are just disappearing all over. I am tired and seriously i need a life.

    Tomorrow last paper get over and done with.

    Physics can kiss my ass goodbye

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    Rachel