I wish whatever you type was real
It makes my heart does flips, jumps and somersaults
Apparently it was all a faccade.

When I walk away you always do something that makes my heart stay


TOodles
Rachel

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Hey all,

I guess I wanna sort my life out, I wanna get things straight. I am out of the love cycle,I am so tired of all this bull-crap that I am given all the time, so I shall give up,I am too tired of staring at him, trying to make some convo with a girl that, I thnk he likes.I can't anymore heartbreaks, I will just crack.

I need to build up my heart, so strong that no one can hurt it, no one can make me feel love once more,I need to be so strong that I know I will not jump or feel akward when I see you.I need to make my self so strong that people do not get to hurt me.

Little side notes

TOodles
Rachel

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Hey all,

I feel so screwed up with my life, I dun like going home, I dun wanna go home, I am just tired of the yelling and screaming when I reach home,I tired of seeing raina and mum and dad fight, it is no longer peaceful, I am tired of living here, I dun feel home, I think my family is screwed up, they have problems and they dun tell each other all they do is PMS infront of each other, how tiring can that get when I return home from a stressful day in school and all they are doing is giving attitude to each other.I am so moving out, I can't live with them anymore, I can't stand the added stress.when I get into a uni, I will move to a hostel, I am just too tired for all this stuff. With the addition of schoolwork.


I am tired, I truly am, I wanna get away from you, sometimes I blame myself for knowing you. Knowing you makes me feel both happy and confuse at the same time,I feel happy when you talk to me, but when you talk to that other person, I just keep telling myself you like her better than me,I want to know what you truly think. I feel like this is one of those added stress that I put on myself, yet I can't remove it , cause my heart does not change overnight, if I ask you to hate me, will that make me feel better.

School work sucks, all I think about is homework constantly, day after day I am worrying about how to complete the day's homework, if I dun I will panick, I hate this feeling.

I need a break, break from family , from that guy and from schoolwork, I am truly tired.

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hey all,

just to let you know my previous post was some sort of reflection post and not a emo-sad post but a emo-reflective post. I have learn alot and grown stronger, so dun worry ok.

I was watching Chi bi 2 , awesome show, love the graphics,love the story line and the show.This war shows are awesome, yet they depict another part of human nature, the greed and ambitiousness of human life, wars are the worse plight in a country, because it is not the soldiers that are tragic, but their wife and mothers. Tons of men go to war, yet in war no matter win or lose, Soldiers will still die,eventually it is their wife and mother that feel the hurt, the loss and the grievance of the death of their love ones. This is how sad war is, and each time i see those soldiers die, i think to myself, did they truly give their life for this or were force to do this job. Sometimes they go for weeks without seeing their family and love one. I don't like war for this reason and i think it is a stupid way to settle your hatred for each other.




my thoughts wonder of to you randomly, i wish to keep distances in order not to hurt myself, yet another half of me wants to know you better,this feelings keep coming, i can't stop it, i wish i did not have a heart, then i won't know love, then i won't feel this way each time i think of you.I wished

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hey all

PI is killing me but i got my first draft done and submited, happy la. haha. I felt as it i have no life, i just go to school, come home face homework, go to school come home face homework,i am so bored i really hope to have a holiday where i can sleep and do what i want, and not have to worry about assigments to complete, deadlines to meet, i am tired yet i can't give up.

my mind drift back to the past, back to where we used to be, when we would hold hands and walk down the street, my voice chattering all the way, you just nod your head and listen.
months pass, we ran out of topics to share, to find out that we were completly 2 different people in life, to my horror and dismay.Hugs and kisses still had their warmth, yet i have grown cold of you,your voice going over the same topic, in my mind ignored completely, i used to say i will wait for you,yet i can't go on anymore,waiting for you has become my chore.I used to say i would love you forever, i can't carry on anymore, cause the flame has been burned out, the love has grown cold,all that resides were all the foreign memories lock up in a far far away, sometimes i miss kisses and hugs, yet i want none from you.You broke my heart and taught me a lesson on how to truly love, now i am all stronger and i am free, no longer bounded by the chains and wounds you left behind, i have learn to love and grow from there,i am happier and free, Thank you for the lessons you taught me, and things i have learn from you, i am alot wiser and i know who to choose.

i have been outta a relationship for almost 2 years and completely forgotten him, i dun need him anymore, all that is left is a thanks you


To a certain person, someone i am standing at the corner watching, i am always behind of you and you most prolly never see the true me, we talk , we laugh, we joke , yet you would never know that i have fallen in love again,sometimes distancing myself would be the best, yet i see you everywhere, i look for you in a crowd wherever you maybe.Sometimes it scares me to know that i would never have the guts to say i like you.Maybe one day , we will see.

feelings run out tonight once more as i sort my life out

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

I wish whatever you type was real
It makes my heart does flips, jumps and somersaults
Apparently it was all a faccade.

When I walk away you always do something that makes my heart stay


TOodles
Rachel
-------------

Hey all,

I guess I wanna sort my life out, I wanna get things straight. I am out of the love cycle,I am so tired of all this bull-crap that I am given all the time, so I shall give up,I am too tired of staring at him, trying to make some convo with a girl that, I thnk he likes.I can't anymore heartbreaks, I will just crack.

I need to build up my heart, so strong that no one can hurt it, no one can make me feel love once more,I need to be so strong that I know I will not jump or feel akward when I see you.I need to make my self so strong that people do not get to hurt me.

Little side notes

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

Hey all,

I feel so screwed up with my life, I dun like going home, I dun wanna go home, I am just tired of the yelling and screaming when I reach home,I tired of seeing raina and mum and dad fight, it is no longer peaceful, I am tired of living here, I dun feel home, I think my family is screwed up, they have problems and they dun tell each other all they do is PMS infront of each other, how tiring can that get when I return home from a stressful day in school and all they are doing is giving attitude to each other.I am so moving out, I can't live with them anymore, I can't stand the added stress.when I get into a uni, I will move to a hostel, I am just too tired for all this stuff. With the addition of schoolwork.


I am tired, I truly am, I wanna get away from you, sometimes I blame myself for knowing you. Knowing you makes me feel both happy and confuse at the same time,I feel happy when you talk to me, but when you talk to that other person, I just keep telling myself you like her better than me,I want to know what you truly think. I feel like this is one of those added stress that I put on myself, yet I can't remove it , cause my heart does not change overnight, if I ask you to hate me, will that make me feel better.

School work sucks, all I think about is homework constantly, day after day I am worrying about how to complete the day's homework, if I dun I will panick, I hate this feeling.

I need a break, break from family , from that guy and from schoolwork, I am truly tired.

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

hey all,

just to let you know my previous post was some sort of reflection post and not a emo-sad post but a emo-reflective post. I have learn alot and grown stronger, so dun worry ok.

I was watching Chi bi 2 , awesome show, love the graphics,love the story line and the show.This war shows are awesome, yet they depict another part of human nature, the greed and ambitiousness of human life, wars are the worse plight in a country, because it is not the soldiers that are tragic, but their wife and mothers. Tons of men go to war, yet in war no matter win or lose, Soldiers will still die,eventually it is their wife and mother that feel the hurt, the loss and the grievance of the death of their love ones. This is how sad war is, and each time i see those soldiers die, i think to myself, did they truly give their life for this or were force to do this job. Sometimes they go for weeks without seeing their family and love one. I don't like war for this reason and i think it is a stupid way to settle your hatred for each other.




my thoughts wonder of to you randomly, i wish to keep distances in order not to hurt myself, yet another half of me wants to know you better,this feelings keep coming, i can't stop it, i wish i did not have a heart, then i won't know love, then i won't feel this way each time i think of you.I wished

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

hey all

PI is killing me but i got my first draft done and submited, happy la. haha. I felt as it i have no life, i just go to school, come home face homework, go to school come home face homework,i am so bored i really hope to have a holiday where i can sleep and do what i want, and not have to worry about assigments to complete, deadlines to meet, i am tired yet i can't give up.

my mind drift back to the past, back to where we used to be, when we would hold hands and walk down the street, my voice chattering all the way, you just nod your head and listen.
months pass, we ran out of topics to share, to find out that we were completly 2 different people in life, to my horror and dismay.Hugs and kisses still had their warmth, yet i have grown cold of you,your voice going over the same topic, in my mind ignored completely, i used to say i will wait for you,yet i can't go on anymore,waiting for you has become my chore.I used to say i would love you forever, i can't carry on anymore, cause the flame has been burned out, the love has grown cold,all that resides were all the foreign memories lock up in a far far away, sometimes i miss kisses and hugs, yet i want none from you.You broke my heart and taught me a lesson on how to truly love, now i am all stronger and i am free, no longer bounded by the chains and wounds you left behind, i have learn to love and grow from there,i am happier and free, Thank you for the lessons you taught me, and things i have learn from you, i am alot wiser and i know who to choose.

i have been outta a relationship for almost 2 years and completely forgotten him, i dun need him anymore, all that is left is a thanks you


To a certain person, someone i am standing at the corner watching, i am always behind of you and you most prolly never see the true me, we talk , we laugh, we joke , yet you would never know that i have fallen in love again,sometimes distancing myself would be the best, yet i see you everywhere, i look for you in a crowd wherever you maybe.Sometimes it scares me to know that i would never have the guts to say i like you.Maybe one day , we will see.

feelings run out tonight once more as i sort my life out

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

Rachel
I am a little bit of everything, I am never in balance because I desire for the extreme choices all the time.I go along with my mood and do what I want to do. I cry when I am upset, scream when I am pissed, basically my emotions rule over my mood and my reactions, I maybe loud and crazy but I am not good with people and I sometimes hurt them. Even though I maybe blunt and crazy now. One thing is for sure, I am keep changing. -That's me

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