Wednesday, May 27, 2009 // 12:13 AM
my emotions overwhelm me, this place seriously has become a place for me to let go my emotional distress , but yet readers dun like the fact that i am posting emotional stuff, these few months in JC taught me a lot, they show me what this world is, they taught me to cope with tons of thing physically, emotionally and mentally. I hope i have grown stronger over all the experiences.
Yet loving remains the same, i piss xinyi off with my lousy characteristic problems, i am too tired. Below is what the sums up my emotions.
i am tired of being all alone
and the solitary moments makes me want to come back home
-secondhand serenade your call
I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreaming
except we always woke up
never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
- FM static Tonight
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
-taylor swift, love story
it is always like being tired and remembering, being painful most of the time
Anyway i am going japan from the 30th may to the 6th June. all miss me ok, anyway TPCO all the best for panorama, i will be there in my heart to support you guys.
TOodles
Rachel
Love is like the wind, you can't see it , yet you know it is there
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Tuesday, May 12, 2009 // 10:21 PM
hey all
school has been very stressful for me, i seem to falling under all the pressure that there is there, but i chose this path and i shall finish it till my A levels. Aside from that, i just finish my SYF.
SYF training was tough, as it we had to stay back till 9 pm in school and i had to stay up till 2-3 am in the morning to do my homework,which i am rather slow at.That why i am sick now
i have come to accept the school life here at JC, i thank god for the great friends i have made, my classmates and CCA mates whom have given their concern over me constantly,they are mainly the reasons why i like school a lot better than i used to. Everyday is a different feeling in school. A less tense day would be wed and fri.
SYF has sort of destroyed my passion for music. I realise that if music is played under stress pressure and expectation, it will completely destroy the passion for creativity and freestyling. I need to develop back the passions for music.It is so important to be as music is the only thing that sees me thoroughly through. It does not lie bout my feelings, it brings about how i feel and my character anad personality in it's song. It tells my fears , weakness and strength. It accepts me for my flaws and strength, that why i love music so much.
I am thinking of taking music theory, once again considering on taking on the music route. to do compositions and doing the thing i love most.Maybe i should get a job at a music store this year, as maybe a assiatant or something like that.
that all i have
TOodles
Rachel
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Friday, May 08, 2009 // 12:11 AM
It is only when you are truly tired
Your dreams get sweeter
Too sweet till you never wanna wake up again
TOodles
Rachel
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Sunday, May 03, 2009 // 12:54 AM
Lost for words to desrcibe how i feel
My feelings run dry
I am too tired now
just weary and worn out
I woke up this morning feeling the feeling of emptiness in my heart, i felt like i have lost something i treasured a lot, but yet i can't figure what i had lost or what i was feeling. It was like someone ate part of my heart. something missing, recently my emotions are giving me loads of problems in life.
I will try to blog about something more meaningful next time
TOodles
Rachel
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