Monday, June 25, 2007 // 5:08 PM
hey blog
dad found my url
now he noes everything bout me
i dun noe whether to be happy that he can understand me like that
or to be upset that he found my url and will noe things bout me that are not suppose to be known by parent
sometimes i am just so confuse
and now he blames me for not letting him see my blog
what the heck
well i am still deciding whether i should close my blog
hmm maybe should use my blog for some other stuff
i still feel a need that my life should be kept a secret
behind my parents back
my reasons for opening this blog was to let out my pains
and sorrows or upsetness
then i just decide to blog on my life
well today is the most horrible day of my life
i hate going back to school
well i hate most things bout this life
if i left this world
many will be happier
and i will be non existent
i feel that i am a pain to everyone around me
but what can i do
i dun wanna be hurt like that again
anyway here a letter
to dad
sorry for being upset bout you finding my blog
and i dun hate you and mum for any reason
i just dun want to be question
and i want you trust me on who i am going out with
and try to let me myself
i dun fit in already
going out with people just to socialise is my means of fitting in
to you guys you dun find it important but i do
from here i just feel like crying
i am so upset by today
it is enough to bring me down
already
Love
Rae
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