Wednesday, July 08, 2009 // 9:32 PM
Hi
I think all my life, my fats have bothered me, they are like a constant nightmare I cannot get rid off, sometimes I wish I could wake up and see myself being normal again. I have always read bout ppl who would get eating disorders and I told myself that that would never happen to me. I love food too much to give it up. Even though I am excercising now, I just put on more weight than lose it. Times like this mak Me feel like being aneroxic. I mean. If it makes me look better why. Yet it is tough, maybe one day I will fall down that path but not today,bacause of my looks and size, I have really given up a lot of things mentally, I guess in this superficial world,you won't anything with a beautiful heart, cause peoplelook at you from your outside.This has bothered me all my life, and if given a chance i will get rid of it once and for all, that is why I would go for plastic surgey if given a chance to. I just give up.
TOodles
Rachel
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