Sunday, September 30, 2007 // 1:04 AM
hi bloggie
sometimes i dun noe why i strive so hard at things in life and it just falls apart
i dun even understand why i still care bout him even though we have broken up
i think tons of you think that i am dumb
but this is just normal human reactions
i dun even noe why i should care
i just hope we still be together
life is getting boring
i realise i live to die
cause life ultimate outcome is to die
so i dun even noe why i bother to strive so hard
all i noe is that i am counting down to the days i left
i think i have at least 50 years more
i am just habouring more thoughts of death
i just can't stop think bout death
and life without him
i dun even noe why i bother to care so much
i feel like a pest to him at times la
i guess so
i hope a car would just bang me down
and run off leaving no trace of evidence and no signs of blood
only left with death and the fact that my love will still go on
i noe it sounds stupid
but these are the truth la
look into my eyes and you see death
i hate this life that i happening
gosh why can't i be like who i use to be
or why must i bother so much
i dun even noe the truth that lies behind the 2 of us
anyway i came outta my room just to blog bout my feeling
i feel better now i hope
i still tear everynight just to put myself to sleep
i still dream bout our memories
i still love the dreams that i have
i still hope to stay in our own la-la land
i still love you like i did last summer
toodles
Rachel
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