Tuesday, March 11, 2008 // 12:19 AM
hi bloggie
THIS POST IS A RANT AND SHALL NOT BE READ BY PEOPLE WHO THINK I AM CHILDISH. IMATURE AND EXPECT ME TO GROW UP. CAUSE THIS IS NONE OF YOUR FREAKING BUSINESS BOUT MY FEELINGS SINCE YOU DON'T GIVE A DAMN
man, i hate super model. all so freaking skinny la. man drool over them, whats wrong with normal people.well i practically am trying to say that i hate the way i look. people keep telling me
"Rachel, you are ok. just loose a bit more weight and you ok liao"
what on earth do you mean by that and your a bit is what? 1 kg, 10kg.i am sick of being myself.i hate going to places seeing woman with like that absolutely perfect figure. arg damn it. why is it so hard to lose weight. i hate my body. people like my little sis has got the best in life she got like almost the right figure i want.and she eats like a a lot of food. i , on the other hand, try to be conscious of what i eat and just indulging in a little snack. i gain 1 kg already. how unfair life can be. i hate this. sometimes i tell people, you are ok you are fine. then in the end i am doing this to myself. how much can i hate this.
i wanna be hot. i want everyone to "wow" over me. i wan those who use to ostracize me . one day say sorry to be and beg to be my friend. i want those that look down on me to say they are sorry and regret their wrong.
it guess that all i have to say.
TOodles
Rachel
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