Today i went out with someone whom i don't actually really know well but in the end we both can hang out well. I have know her since sec1 however we really know each other better this year.Well she is Soh Wei Xin. Today we went to the bedok view carnival to support her friend. After that we left to TM to watch movie.Decided to catch narnia,Prince caspian. That movie really open my thought and mind.

ok let me share abit bout my favourite.ok

this william mosley, he acts as Peter Pevensie.the elder brother in narnia. i thought he is kinda cute.

this is ben barnes, he acts as prince caspian in narnia. i think he looks quite good looking too.

this is anna popplewell she acts as Susan Pevensie,Peter's younger sister. she is really pretty and in the show she is a cool heroine.Prince caspian actually like her and they farewell with a kiss. so touching

Anyway the show had a lot of battles, while they were fighting, i was just looking and think if this world did not have war, many people will have a easier life. this world will be a better place. i am not asking for world peace to happen cause that kinda impossible. Just that those that usually die are no the starter of war but yet the men who live and can't be bothered to give commands, they have families and friends that they will miss from war and when they die, it is these family and friends that cry for them.Some of these soldiers that go to war actually die ad leave behind their love ones.

then i remember one scene that lucy actually wanted to be braver and then aslan told her she could do it. then when the Telmarine wanted to cross the bridge, Lucy drew out a little sword and then everyone stared and laugh in the cinema. then when the telmarine charged at Lucy. then aslan showed up beside her and just a Roar by him and he got the waves to drown the telmarine.In Scene, aslan resembled god in my mind( lion of Judah) and lucy was like us normal people with fear and many doubts in life.So when lucy took out the little dagger, it is like us trying to fight our fears.then God will be there to hold us and help us as long as we believe in him and ourself that we can do it.

anyway that all for today i enjoyed myself with soh wei xin today.

Thank god for being with me through my life( a thought after that scene of aslan and lucy)\

TOodles
Rachel

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Bloggie

i think i am feeling better, somehow that feeling some how come up once in awhile.i am having loads of relationship problem. not my problem.my juniors problem. well my problem is only 15%.

anyway my girlfriend wants me to do a quiz so i have to do

A) Anyone who has been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new one.

B) Tag 8 ppl to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These ppl must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game.

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#1. If ur lover betrayed u, what would your reaction be?
erm i would punch that guy, show him i am better than his choice of girls and then make him regret and beg me.

#2. If i could wish for 10 things, what would they be?
erm for me to be happy, for that person whom i like to be happy, family & friend to be good and happy, for Rachel to pass my o levels with 8 points, to find a very gentlemen boyfriend.the Earth to be perfect. to take up every instrument in this world. to form my own band.To have super good vocals.To fufill my dreams in this life time.

#3. What will ur dream wedding be like?
To Have it somewhere beautiful ,to marry someone i love

#4. What would u do with a billion dollars?
spend all i want , the remaining give god

#5. Whats ur ideal lover like?
a kind and generous person that would give to help the poor,a man who can give women respect they deserve and to love a women his life. a man who can cook ,clean and do the housework.must be taller than me,maturity level must be higher than me. a fun loving man and put family first before work.Whatever as long as i love you, you are in.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving Someone, although i get hurt if i love someone more however i feel more at ease with me loving someone

7. How long do u intend to wait for someone u truly love?
I truly love... hmmm i think i would la if he would marry me in the end so i will not turn old

#8. If the person u secretly like is already attached, what wld u do?
i would bless them and let them go( something to do with my principles)

9. Is there anything that has made u unhappy these days?
Yes, my problems

#10. What cheers u up the fastest?
encouraging words from people whom i care

#11. How do u see yourself in 10 yrs' time?
A superwoman who handles many things at one time, well a famous singer and chemist ( that simple)

#12. What is your unlucky number?
dun have cause every number has a equal prosibility

#13. What kind of person do u think the person who tagged u is?
my girlfriend, a kind and helpful girl and she love guys( not very sure leh) and she loves me=D

#14. Would u rather be single and rich or married but poor?
i rather be single and rich cause if i am married but then not happy how? i gonna cry lor. so must be rich

#15. Whats on my mind ?
my brain is half fried so can't really thin, actually hmm should i do online shopping.

#16. Would u give all in a relationship?
yes.if it i serious

#17. If u fall in love with 2 ppl, who would u pick?
my xinyi and that someone

#18. What type of friends do u like?
people who can click and understand me and not judge me for the outer appearance

(drum roll)
my 8 dudes and duddettes are
Rainy lame porks
ziyang
Dhana( uncle banana)
Anna
Sherry
Emily
Grace
Xin xian

ok anyway today CHIJ st Nicholas concert with ah boy and Rainy lame porks.i enjoyed my day la , i did not feel it was a waste,i thought it was good especially the string orchestra.i was awed by the violins la.







that all for today

TOodles
Rachel

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recently been emotional so i may post more than once again.Reading through dead blogs.I realise something is not right in me .Why that tinge of anger when her name is mention , why do i feel so scared.suddenly i did not feel like myself i felt something else.Being typical me i jumped into conclusions with out asking, i don't intend to ask.

Stop barging into people life like you know then well Rachy.if people are happy together, even though it is not said out loud. i should make them happy i should not stand between them.i should go all out to help them get together right. i have been telling myself this . i must get people together. i can't fall in love, i can't afford to fall in love. it will ruin my life. but yet i just keep falling in love. i have to devote my life to helping people find happiness.I just screw up all relationships i should just concentrate on my life.

people who just think i am being weird can ignore the top post cause that just how i feel. you have no right to tell me how i should feel. unless i owe you something or something along that line.anyway ignoree me i am going through a emotional time where nobody really knows.Anyway i have long gone got over my mourning of my old relationship phrase. now it is just a new start however i will not say anything cause even if i say nothing good will come outta it. just leave me alone.

i have thought running through my head like a bullet train.
all bout you and that girl
whether or not it is true bout the 2 of you
only time will tell


TOodles
Rachel

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This is really sweet........

-When a Girl is quiet ...
millions of things are running
in her mind.

-When a Girl is not arguing ...
she is thinking deeply.

-When a Girl looks at u
with eyes full of questions
... she is wondering
how long you will be around.

-When a Girl answers
' I'm fine '
after a few seconds
...she is not at all fine.

-When a Girl stares at you
... she is wondering why you
are lying.

-When a Girl lays on your
chest ...
she is wishing for you to
be hers forever.

-When a Girl wants to see you
everyday...
she wants to be pampered.

-When a Girl says
' I love you ' ...
she means it.

-When a Girl says
' I miss you ' ...
no one in this world can
miss you more than that.

-Life only comes around
once make sure u spend it
with the right person...

Find a Guy,
-Who calls you beautiful
instead of hot.




-Who calls you back when
you hang up on him.

-Who will stay awake
just to watch you sleep.


-Wait for the guy who ...
kisses your forehead.

-Who wants to show you
off to the worldwhen you
are in your sweats.





-Who holds your hand in
front of his friends.

-Who is constantly
reminding you of how much
he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you.

-Who turns to his friends
and says, ' That's her!! '

anyway you guys still remember the post on dumb girls( refer to 28 april 2008)
well 18 people have voted and outta 18. 2 picked dumb girls and the rest pick smart girls so maybe the 2 think that this is a joke or something else. Anyway i will post up more polls for people .Guys read this post with your eyes freaking big.

TOodles
Rachel

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woo hoo CHINESE O LEVELS CAN KISS MY ASS GOODBYE .Unless i need to retake it, then sad. I don't think i did very well. so abit upset but i will get over it anyway rush and rush through this few weeks . I am going shanghai on the 5th of june so people dun miss me. although i will miss you guys.

ok gonna do some quiz cause rainy lame porks( i hope she don't see this) want me to do this

.::Quiz::.
1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Leonard chia on msn. but my dad at home ( scolding me la i think)

2. Where is the last place you went out to eat?
Japanese food at the tampines swimming complex

3. What was the last beverage you consumed?
Heaven & earth green tea

4. Thoughts at this moment?
why does raina like Aiba hiroki( cause i copy and paste this quiz from Raina's blog )

5. Do you bite your lips a lot?
When i get nervous and have random moments

6. Medical, fine arts, or law?
Medical only la. I can't draw stick man la

8. Favorite drink?
Green tea and ice lemon Tea

9. Do you miss anyone?
ya. Xinyi and that someone( not him)

10. What were you doing at 6:00 PM on last Friday night?
chatting on IMVU and doing random stuff

11. Who was the last person you had in your room?
Rainy lame porks

12. Can you speak another language?
Erm not really abit of jap( Raina fault)

13. What are you going to do tomorrow?
Go for Gu Zheng Class but i wanna go out tomorrow

14. Who was the last band you saw live?
i think my own band ( worship team)

15. Do you take care of your friends while they're sick?
i think so if they let me know that they are sick

16. Do you like to read?
Love stories

17. Favorite colors?
Blue, Black , Purple and Hot Pink actually anything that looks good

18. Who is your favorite person to have a conversation with?
Him( abit bugging me la) Xinyi (my bitching girlfriend) marcus chua( hey what a rifle) clement( i not camel la ) and Wesley( sorry if i got it wrong)

19. Where did you go today?
School for chinese o levels

20. Nickname?
Rae, Rachy, Camels(clement) i can't think of anything other than lame porks but that raina

Dingdong , This are the lucky 6 people who are honoured to do this survey !
1.Chen xinyi
2.Uncle banana
3.zi yang
4. sherry
5.Michelle
6.Chin leong

must do la thanks Rainy lame porks (haha)

TOodles
Rachel

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Hi bloggie

as i am writing i am crying . my o levels are really bad.I have no idea how to do my chinese. I feel like an asshole on chinese i can't save myself. i am falling deeper into a trap and then i will fail. my confidence is smashed and shattered.My life is a puzzle now.I am just in a lost for words. I dun want anyone to ostracizes me. I am who i am .I can't do this. i am cracking under the pressure that i am have to endure.I am breaking down.

Anyway the only thing i am happy with is that there is tapestry 2008. i became friends with the tapestry group on facebook and they send me a invite to go for tapestry.Finally i can sing once more.I told my parents, they yelled at me again they say must blance my tapestry and O levels Blah Blah Blah... i just felt so hurt.They dun understand me. I love music. That my main Goal in life. Why i am ambition less is because i wanna be a musician but how many musicians make it big, not many, That why i smashed my one and only dream myself. I told myself to stop dreaming , to focus on some decent job.Which i have no passion for , i just do it for the sake of money. But it is not the passion that i love.

Singing makes me feel like myself. it makes me who i am.I express myself through this songs.I Singing cause that where i feel at ease.I automatically put on a smile when i sing. it is natural. it just comes.When i sing that when people see me for who i am. And not what usually mask me from behind.If i could relive my passion and revive it then i am truly contended, but i will never be the best. Anyway THE BAND will we still be united as one (even though one or two have left) or will we just be history and a memory of my past.

I pray for a band who loves music as much as i do.Who is willing to singing and play for the glory of god, and no matter what happens we will not be history and a memory of my past.We will stick together as one and will not fall apart.Amen

TOodles
Rachel

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Mother tongue is really horrible and coaching has been a total bitch.arg.we spend our time doing papers, not that i am saying that it is a waste of time . i guess this coaching has help me alot i understand more words than before. However it is leaving me with really big headaches i had one yesterday. brain nearly burst after seeing like thousands of chinese words a day.

Anyway the usually routine is to get to class do paper 1, go down for a review. Go back to class do paper 2 then review. after that go home.For me i will stay back to finish paper 1.Had loads of fun bitching with Xinyi girlfriend. Then later feeling guilty bout bitching .haha.So stress.Well someone better date me out so that i can distress from all the Chinese words. Oh my

Guy pray for me cause my most horrible exams is on the 26 of this month. What a bitch.

anyway i did something to my legs . if you wanna know go ask Raina ok. well she better not tell

TOodles
Rachel

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hi bloggie

back to blog bout taiwan part 3.i know it is kinda slow. anyway we made our way up the mountain. it was freaking cold when we came out to take photo. stayed at the top where we stayed in places like a log cabin, still beautiful.The place we stayed at the mountain top was near some animal farm. So we went to visit the farm the next day, saw sheeps and sheep dog. i like the sheep dog.Super cute la. anyway then we walk around the park and saw the rabbits. Rabbits have really soft fur and makes them so huggable. anyway we walk around then had some sheep milk puff.when touring around the mountain top. After that went down and on the hot springs







the place where we had dinner that night

sheep food(eww)


















cute right? the bus uncle make it one la



then we took a trip to hot springs down.it was like a small little town that we walk all over . i got drunk at the Japaneses restaurant. and then later went to the hot springs. the water was at 40 degrees.c after the hot spring i felt much more awake. hot spring are really good ok.







on our way down to the sun moon lake





the cat is bringing sexyback





TOodles
Rachel

Labels: Taiwan

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i dream bout you yesterday. it was all the same. why do you keep coming to me over and over. this time was slightly different from my pass dream. it was like someone else told me she like him. i so call had to be the middle person when i shared a past with him. somehow i felt upset, for a random reason i dun noe why. i guess he is still somewhere in there. i thought i have move on ,yet a part of me decided to stay just to wait.

HE TOOK A PIECE OF MY HEART
I NEVER THOUGHT MY WORLD WOULD FALL APART
HE SAID HE FELL IN LOVE
AND THIS WAS MORE THAN I HAD EVER BEEN AFRAID OF

this was practically how i felt in my dream.So freaky.anyway chinese o levels are coming and i seriously gotta study you know why. cause i got a 56 for overall and a 52 for my sa1 so how to get my b4 like that.

anyway good thing is tomorrow got cell group. YAY!

TOodles
Rachel

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i am so please and so glad that i wanna scream

WOO HOO. EXAMS ARE OVER.

after screaming i wanna cry

MT O LEVEL ARE COMING IN 2 WEEKS

after this is directly my mother tongue o level.then go to shanghai.shopping,shopping and more shopping.plus i get to train under professionals.well but the whole thing end in Nov.Then can go party the whole day and night.well the exams are done horrendously and i seriously apologize to anyone who has seen my paper and feel offended by it.

even though i try my best for the physic paper and amaths paper . i have given up hope to do well.so let it come my way.anyway i owe someone a favour for help.after exams went out to study with xinyi most of the time crap and marcus jie mei join us the 2 time so go crap and run joke and laugh bout rifles.

xinyi girlfriend is sick with sore throat just like me the other time. must get well ok.

anyway since exam is temporary over i shall go dancing on the moon. haha and go soak in cheese bath

sick ok not the cheese bath cause i will stink.

TOodles
Rachel

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Today i went out with someone whom i don't actually really know well but in the end we both can hang out well. I have know her since sec1 however we really know each other better this year.Well she is Soh Wei Xin. Today we went to the bedok view carnival to support her friend. After that we left to TM to watch movie.Decided to catch narnia,Prince caspian. That movie really open my thought and mind.

ok let me share abit bout my favourite.ok

this william mosley, he acts as Peter Pevensie.the elder brother in narnia. i thought he is kinda cute.

this is ben barnes, he acts as prince caspian in narnia. i think he looks quite good looking too.

this is anna popplewell she acts as Susan Pevensie,Peter's younger sister. she is really pretty and in the show she is a cool heroine.Prince caspian actually like her and they farewell with a kiss. so touching

Anyway the show had a lot of battles, while they were fighting, i was just looking and think if this world did not have war, many people will have a easier life. this world will be a better place. i am not asking for world peace to happen cause that kinda impossible. Just that those that usually die are no the starter of war but yet the men who live and can't be bothered to give commands, they have families and friends that they will miss from war and when they die, it is these family and friends that cry for them.Some of these soldiers that go to war actually die ad leave behind their love ones.

then i remember one scene that lucy actually wanted to be braver and then aslan told her she could do it. then when the Telmarine wanted to cross the bridge, Lucy drew out a little sword and then everyone stared and laugh in the cinema. then when the telmarine charged at Lucy. then aslan showed up beside her and just a Roar by him and he got the waves to drown the telmarine.In Scene, aslan resembled god in my mind( lion of Judah) and lucy was like us normal people with fear and many doubts in life.So when lucy took out the little dagger, it is like us trying to fight our fears.then God will be there to hold us and help us as long as we believe in him and ourself that we can do it.

anyway that all for today i enjoyed myself with soh wei xin today.

Thank god for being with me through my life( a thought after that scene of aslan and lucy)\

TOodles
Rachel
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Bloggie

i think i am feeling better, somehow that feeling some how come up once in awhile.i am having loads of relationship problem. not my problem.my juniors problem. well my problem is only 15%.

anyway my girlfriend wants me to do a quiz so i have to do

A) Anyone who has been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new one.

B) Tag 8 ppl to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These ppl must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game.

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#1. If ur lover betrayed u, what would your reaction be?
erm i would punch that guy, show him i am better than his choice of girls and then make him regret and beg me.

#2. If i could wish for 10 things, what would they be?
erm for me to be happy, for that person whom i like to be happy, family & friend to be good and happy, for Rachel to pass my o levels with 8 points, to find a very gentlemen boyfriend.the Earth to be perfect. to take up every instrument in this world. to form my own band.To have super good vocals.To fufill my dreams in this life time.

#3. What will ur dream wedding be like?
To Have it somewhere beautiful ,to marry someone i love

#4. What would u do with a billion dollars?
spend all i want , the remaining give god

#5. Whats ur ideal lover like?
a kind and generous person that would give to help the poor,a man who can give women respect they deserve and to love a women his life. a man who can cook ,clean and do the housework.must be taller than me,maturity level must be higher than me. a fun loving man and put family first before work.Whatever as long as i love you, you are in.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving Someone, although i get hurt if i love someone more however i feel more at ease with me loving someone

7. How long do u intend to wait for someone u truly love?
I truly love... hmmm i think i would la if he would marry me in the end so i will not turn old

#8. If the person u secretly like is already attached, what wld u do?
i would bless them and let them go( something to do with my principles)

9. Is there anything that has made u unhappy these days?
Yes, my problems

#10. What cheers u up the fastest?
encouraging words from people whom i care

#11. How do u see yourself in 10 yrs' time?
A superwoman who handles many things at one time, well a famous singer and chemist ( that simple)

#12. What is your unlucky number?
dun have cause every number has a equal prosibility

#13. What kind of person do u think the person who tagged u is?
my girlfriend, a kind and helpful girl and she love guys( not very sure leh) and she loves me=D

#14. Would u rather be single and rich or married but poor?
i rather be single and rich cause if i am married but then not happy how? i gonna cry lor. so must be rich

#15. Whats on my mind ?
my brain is half fried so can't really thin, actually hmm should i do online shopping.

#16. Would u give all in a relationship?
yes.if it i serious

#17. If u fall in love with 2 ppl, who would u pick?
my xinyi and that someone

#18. What type of friends do u like?
people who can click and understand me and not judge me for the outer appearance

(drum roll)
my 8 dudes and duddettes are
Rainy lame porks
ziyang
Dhana( uncle banana)
Anna
Sherry
Emily
Grace
Xin xian

ok anyway today CHIJ st Nicholas concert with ah boy and Rainy lame porks.i enjoyed my day la , i did not feel it was a waste,i thought it was good especially the string orchestra.i was awed by the violins la.







that all for today

TOodles
Rachel
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recently been emotional so i may post more than once again.Reading through dead blogs.I realise something is not right in me .Why that tinge of anger when her name is mention , why do i feel so scared.suddenly i did not feel like myself i felt something else.Being typical me i jumped into conclusions with out asking, i don't intend to ask.

Stop barging into people life like you know then well Rachy.if people are happy together, even though it is not said out loud. i should make them happy i should not stand between them.i should go all out to help them get together right. i have been telling myself this . i must get people together. i can't fall in love, i can't afford to fall in love. it will ruin my life. but yet i just keep falling in love. i have to devote my life to helping people find happiness.I just screw up all relationships i should just concentrate on my life.

people who just think i am being weird can ignore the top post cause that just how i feel. you have no right to tell me how i should feel. unless i owe you something or something along that line.anyway ignoree me i am going through a emotional time where nobody really knows.Anyway i have long gone got over my mourning of my old relationship phrase. now it is just a new start however i will not say anything cause even if i say nothing good will come outta it. just leave me alone.

i have thought running through my head like a bullet train.
all bout you and that girl
whether or not it is true bout the 2 of you
only time will tell


TOodles
Rachel
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This is really sweet........

-When a Girl is quiet ...
millions of things are running
in her mind.

-When a Girl is not arguing ...
she is thinking deeply.

-When a Girl looks at u
with eyes full of questions
... she is wondering
how long you will be around.

-When a Girl answers
' I'm fine '
after a few seconds
...she is not at all fine.

-When a Girl stares at you
... she is wondering why you
are lying.

-When a Girl lays on your
chest ...
she is wishing for you to
be hers forever.

-When a Girl wants to see you
everyday...
she wants to be pampered.

-When a Girl says
' I love you ' ...
she means it.

-When a Girl says
' I miss you ' ...
no one in this world can
miss you more than that.

-Life only comes around
once make sure u spend it
with the right person...

Find a Guy,
-Who calls you beautiful
instead of hot.




-Who calls you back when
you hang up on him.

-Who will stay awake
just to watch you sleep.


-Wait for the guy who ...
kisses your forehead.

-Who wants to show you
off to the worldwhen you
are in your sweats.





-Who holds your hand in
front of his friends.

-Who is constantly
reminding you of how much
he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you.

-Who turns to his friends
and says, ' That's her!! '

anyway you guys still remember the post on dumb girls( refer to 28 april 2008)
well 18 people have voted and outta 18. 2 picked dumb girls and the rest pick smart girls so maybe the 2 think that this is a joke or something else. Anyway i will post up more polls for people .Guys read this post with your eyes freaking big.

TOodles
Rachel

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woo hoo CHINESE O LEVELS CAN KISS MY ASS GOODBYE .Unless i need to retake it, then sad. I don't think i did very well. so abit upset but i will get over it anyway rush and rush through this few weeks . I am going shanghai on the 5th of june so people dun miss me. although i will miss you guys.

ok gonna do some quiz cause rainy lame porks( i hope she don't see this) want me to do this

.::Quiz::.
1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Leonard chia on msn. but my dad at home ( scolding me la i think)

2. Where is the last place you went out to eat?
Japanese food at the tampines swimming complex

3. What was the last beverage you consumed?
Heaven & earth green tea

4. Thoughts at this moment?
why does raina like Aiba hiroki( cause i copy and paste this quiz from Raina's blog )

5. Do you bite your lips a lot?
When i get nervous and have random moments

6. Medical, fine arts, or law?
Medical only la. I can't draw stick man la

8. Favorite drink?
Green tea and ice lemon Tea

9. Do you miss anyone?
ya. Xinyi and that someone( not him)

10. What were you doing at 6:00 PM on last Friday night?
chatting on IMVU and doing random stuff

11. Who was the last person you had in your room?
Rainy lame porks

12. Can you speak another language?
Erm not really abit of jap( Raina fault)

13. What are you going to do tomorrow?
Go for Gu Zheng Class but i wanna go out tomorrow

14. Who was the last band you saw live?
i think my own band ( worship team)

15. Do you take care of your friends while they're sick?
i think so if they let me know that they are sick

16. Do you like to read?
Love stories

17. Favorite colors?
Blue, Black , Purple and Hot Pink actually anything that looks good

18. Who is your favorite person to have a conversation with?
Him( abit bugging me la) Xinyi (my bitching girlfriend) marcus chua( hey what a rifle) clement( i not camel la ) and Wesley( sorry if i got it wrong)

19. Where did you go today?
School for chinese o levels

20. Nickname?
Rae, Rachy, Camels(clement) i can't think of anything other than lame porks but that raina

Dingdong , This are the lucky 6 people who are honoured to do this survey !
1.Chen xinyi
2.Uncle banana
3.zi yang
4. sherry
5.Michelle
6.Chin leong

must do la thanks Rainy lame porks (haha)

TOodles
Rachel
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Hi bloggie

as i am writing i am crying . my o levels are really bad.I have no idea how to do my chinese. I feel like an asshole on chinese i can't save myself. i am falling deeper into a trap and then i will fail. my confidence is smashed and shattered.My life is a puzzle now.I am just in a lost for words. I dun want anyone to ostracizes me. I am who i am .I can't do this. i am cracking under the pressure that i am have to endure.I am breaking down.

Anyway the only thing i am happy with is that there is tapestry 2008. i became friends with the tapestry group on facebook and they send me a invite to go for tapestry.Finally i can sing once more.I told my parents, they yelled at me again they say must blance my tapestry and O levels Blah Blah Blah... i just felt so hurt.They dun understand me. I love music. That my main Goal in life. Why i am ambition less is because i wanna be a musician but how many musicians make it big, not many, That why i smashed my one and only dream myself. I told myself to stop dreaming , to focus on some decent job.Which i have no passion for , i just do it for the sake of money. But it is not the passion that i love.

Singing makes me feel like myself. it makes me who i am.I express myself through this songs.I Singing cause that where i feel at ease.I automatically put on a smile when i sing. it is natural. it just comes.When i sing that when people see me for who i am. And not what usually mask me from behind.If i could relive my passion and revive it then i am truly contended, but i will never be the best. Anyway THE BAND will we still be united as one (even though one or two have left) or will we just be history and a memory of my past.

I pray for a band who loves music as much as i do.Who is willing to singing and play for the glory of god, and no matter what happens we will not be history and a memory of my past.We will stick together as one and will not fall apart.Amen

TOodles
Rachel
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Mother tongue is really horrible and coaching has been a total bitch.arg.we spend our time doing papers, not that i am saying that it is a waste of time . i guess this coaching has help me alot i understand more words than before. However it is leaving me with really big headaches i had one yesterday. brain nearly burst after seeing like thousands of chinese words a day.

Anyway the usually routine is to get to class do paper 1, go down for a review. Go back to class do paper 2 then review. after that go home.For me i will stay back to finish paper 1.Had loads of fun bitching with Xinyi girlfriend. Then later feeling guilty bout bitching .haha.So stress.Well someone better date me out so that i can distress from all the Chinese words. Oh my

Guy pray for me cause my most horrible exams is on the 26 of this month. What a bitch.

anyway i did something to my legs . if you wanna know go ask Raina ok. well she better not tell

TOodles
Rachel
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hi bloggie

back to blog bout taiwan part 3.i know it is kinda slow. anyway we made our way up the mountain. it was freaking cold when we came out to take photo. stayed at the top where we stayed in places like a log cabin, still beautiful.The place we stayed at the mountain top was near some animal farm. So we went to visit the farm the next day, saw sheeps and sheep dog. i like the sheep dog.Super cute la. anyway then we walk around the park and saw the rabbits. Rabbits have really soft fur and makes them so huggable. anyway we walk around then had some sheep milk puff.when touring around the mountain top. After that went down and on the hot springs







the place where we had dinner that night

sheep food(eww)


















cute right? the bus uncle make it one la



then we took a trip to hot springs down.it was like a small little town that we walk all over . i got drunk at the Japaneses restaurant. and then later went to the hot springs. the water was at 40 degrees.c after the hot spring i felt much more awake. hot spring are really good ok.







on our way down to the sun moon lake





the cat is bringing sexyback





TOodles
Rachel

Labels: Taiwan

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i dream bout you yesterday. it was all the same. why do you keep coming to me over and over. this time was slightly different from my pass dream. it was like someone else told me she like him. i so call had to be the middle person when i shared a past with him. somehow i felt upset, for a random reason i dun noe why. i guess he is still somewhere in there. i thought i have move on ,yet a part of me decided to stay just to wait.

HE TOOK A PIECE OF MY HEART
I NEVER THOUGHT MY WORLD WOULD FALL APART
HE SAID HE FELL IN LOVE
AND THIS WAS MORE THAN I HAD EVER BEEN AFRAID OF

this was practically how i felt in my dream.So freaky.anyway chinese o levels are coming and i seriously gotta study you know why. cause i got a 56 for overall and a 52 for my sa1 so how to get my b4 like that.

anyway good thing is tomorrow got cell group. YAY!

TOodles
Rachel
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i am so please and so glad that i wanna scream

WOO HOO. EXAMS ARE OVER.

after screaming i wanna cry

MT O LEVEL ARE COMING IN 2 WEEKS

after this is directly my mother tongue o level.then go to shanghai.shopping,shopping and more shopping.plus i get to train under professionals.well but the whole thing end in Nov.Then can go party the whole day and night.well the exams are done horrendously and i seriously apologize to anyone who has seen my paper and feel offended by it.

even though i try my best for the physic paper and amaths paper . i have given up hope to do well.so let it come my way.anyway i owe someone a favour for help.after exams went out to study with xinyi most of the time crap and marcus jie mei join us the 2 time so go crap and run joke and laugh bout rifles.

xinyi girlfriend is sick with sore throat just like me the other time. must get well ok.

anyway since exam is temporary over i shall go dancing on the moon. haha and go soak in cheese bath

sick ok not the cheese bath cause i will stink.

TOodles
Rachel
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Rachel
I am a little bit of everything, I am never in balance because I desire for the extreme choices all the time.I go along with my mood and do what I want to do. I cry when I am upset, scream when I am pissed, basically my emotions rule over my mood and my reactions, I maybe loud and crazy but I am not good with people and I sometimes hurt them. Even though I maybe blunt and crazy now. One thing is for sure, I am keep changing. -That's me

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