Saturday, March 28, 2009 // 9:49 PM
hey blog
yesterday i lost my voice, as in i could not talk, oh well then went to go play LAN with cca mates, quite dumb la, cause i no voice then still play LAN but i told them i will go la, but play a while only after that go see doctor then the doc gave me medicine and antibiotics. Now i feel better la cause i can talk and scream, i really hope i can sing tomorrow. Oh well, my main aim is to finish my homework now, i feel like i dun study enough but everyone tells me i mug like nobody's business.
I am tired la and i am feeling really confuse, it feels like one of the nights i wanna cry for no apparent reason, wanting to just bursting out and do what i want la, that all i have la
TOodles
Rachel
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Monday, March 23, 2009 // 11:49 PM
hey all
school work sucks and i have tons , with loads of homework, but i got great friends oh well plus point to go school, tomorrow econs test wish me all the best ok on a lighter note
i dun stare at the computer like this ok
TOodles
Rachel
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009 // 11:29 PM
Suddenly the world seem so fake to me.I was watching the chinese show yi qie wan mei.There is this girl who is like fat,but she has a good heart.In my mind,fat people are never really love,that why I no longer believe that human love exist,everyone is just so fake, you must be good looking, thin and pretty to be accepted.Suddenly confidence within me disappeared.I just can't figure out what this world wants.People with outside and no beautiful heart.
Oh well this is a rant la and not directed at anyone,
Stop dreaming cause you know love never comes
TOodles
Rachel
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// 12:10 AM
Tonight in the night sky, i saw something with different hues of colours, it was beautiful.I saw the stars in the night sky, the whole sky filled with stars. Stars of different sizes and shape, some dimmer, some brighter.The whole night gave me a feeling of comfort and serenity.It reminded me of the beauty of the lord.If stars were so beautiful, how much more beautiful are we, as we worth more than stars and how much more beautiful is the lord himself.There and then i felt like lying on the breakwaters and staring and falling asleep under the beautiful creation the lord has made,I totally fell in love with the sky.On the sky inscribe the magificent of the lord, that were i fell in love again, just admiring the beauty of creation makes me love him more.
Thank you all mighty lord
Oh well for non christian, all i gotta say is that the night sky at ECP is really beautiful, go there with your boyfriend or girlfriend haha
Toodles
Rachel
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Sunday, March 01, 2009 // 12:29 AM
dying from the stress that is killing me, somehow school work never finishes,my hours in school are uncountable and i am so freaking stress, trying to live up to what everyone expects from me, trying to be whatever people want me to be.I hate this i am just super piss and upset. I wanna burn out asap so i can run from all this.
i am too tired, i never get to sleep in for the whole week.and I hate the undo able tutorial question, they are like not for people to do one lor, oh well i choose this path, now i have to suffer the wrath of it.Plus i have so many things coming in from my parents and people around me.They want everything done, I can't do everything.
on a second note.I wish i was born a boy. that way people won't care bout what is happening to me.I wish i could fight and own people at games,I wish i have the brains to do crazy things and everyone claims i am crazy, i wish i could own a PSP, X Box, WII all at the same time without working hard, lastly i wish i was a boy so i can eat everything and then shit them out without storing anything.
GOD give me strength for the next 2 years
TOodles
Rachel
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