hi blogie

i hope i am doing the right thing with my relationship problem. just leaving it alone until it is time to think.let hope this work and i will be a better person. anyway i am feeling really random today. so i shall do random stuff


Rachel & xinyi❤

need i repeat anymore i love her arrrrrrrrrr. yes she is my darling girlfriend and we have been together for bout 3 years coming 4. thanks for your support girl. CHEN XINYI IS LOVE



Yickting and Rachel ❤(pls ignore karen people)

oh romeo oh romeo. how great thou love shall be. sorry just being random like i said. anyway she is my dearest romeo for bout 3 to 4 years i guess . i love her (or him, since she is romeo). karen is just being a poser there.


Rachel & karen❤

my dearest carrot , although you are quite dense and slow at times and a very good friend to bully i still love you ok . sometimes the thing i talk you would not understand , but i am still thankful you would listen. thanks alot



Rachel and Raina❤

my darling mini me that is half a size smaller but 10 times fiercer .my only bodyguard and my only sister i love cross my heart . we only have each other no matter how bad life seems. i hope we will carry each other through the years ok. I LOVE RAINA LIM JIE YING



Mum and Dad❤

making them piss is my part time duty but being their daughter is my full time job as a lim. apparently i do my part time job more frequent than my full time job. anyway i still remember aunty shanti said that god gave me grace because of my parents that have been praying for me behind my back. i am really glad to have parents that care too much yet let go. thanks mum and dad i love you guys

i can't really remember who else i wanna thank and after reading all my thank you. you guys must be thinking i am lesbian . up to you to see it in watever way . i love the rest of you guys who appeared in my life and made it amazing .To you.(whoever you are you noe) i love you still take care . i hope to meet you in my future.

see although randomness is not in the blood i still manage to stick with it

TOodles
Rachel

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hi bloggie

i feel so confuse now. i hate confusion. i am just so upset about everything that happening between me and him. somehow i can't let go. i have not been truly happy since last year september. it hurts, no one sees my pain. they dun noe anything and they tell me to just get over it. as i stare into the mirror the only thing i see is weakness. when did i become so weak, was it then in sec 2 when i had my first shot. that fella gave me a heart. but i could turn it cold. i did not or is it when he left. i dun wanna run away from these problems, i need to solve them. i can't just cover them out i need a good mind set i need a strong heart. i should turn my heart cold toward my problems, so when i solve them will not scream, i will not cry.when someone you loves leaves you, one part of me died.i guess Rae is no longer there already. now Rachel is really hurting inside.saying sorry is pointless. i pray lord pls take my pain away. Amen

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hi bloggie

yesterday was valentines day, got present form xinyi girlfriend and celeste.my dearest romeo did not give me . but it is ok i gave her la. hope everyone like my cookies.later on i went all the way down to boon lay to pass my good friends their gifts. hope everyone love them.ls give comment on them thanks

last year bout june, i was looking forward to valentines day. but yet before any valentine day started . it ends in just a blink of an eye. here i am left on the stone with no place to hide with no place to go.you walk on in life without looking back , without shedding a tear. you held your head up high , not a sound , not a cry.right now sitting in a pool of blood, you stole nothing except my heart. i have no more feelings, no more emotions.but yet somehow i can feel the pain. the hurt.i saw couples holding hands. i wish i was in their situation but no guarantees la.

anyway just now went to the gym and scrap my knee

see how bad my scrap knee is

anyway that all for today

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hi bloggie

my life goes as time flow
yet through which direction i don't know
pains and wounds will not be heal with time
yet a longing of drifting away is wanted

i hope to run away to a place where you would not find me
where i will be hidden by trees and waters, mountains and streams
where i can rest my head without worries
and not be hurt by you

the scars still remains
the wounds look fresh
they reek of blood
they stain my skin

i need something to heal them
i need you
i need you badly
but how much i cry
nothing will be done

let me be on my own for the moment
then slowly if you have the guts
come back to the place
where there lies the two of us

well i think this actually write out my feeling. happy valentines day people


TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hi bloggie

i just came back from a run.i was thinking bout my relationship with him. how will i carry on this pain. sometime it brings hope and joy.yet at times it brings pain and suffering . it hurt sometimes yet it makes me happy. sometimes this emotions make me wanna give up yet at times it makes me cling on to the hope.i don't know what is going on. i took a 2 week break from him .somehow i just feel that it is kind of weird. yet i do feel a sense of relive in me this emotions are playing with me .

i will just leave this problem aside. i gotta sleep soon people.

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

.
hi bloggie,

first day of Chinese new year went to the place that i always remember all my past. it does not haunt me yet it only brings back sweets memories.my grand parents niche. somehow it became a tradition to visit them every Chinese new year. i love them and miss them alots. anyway meet up with my cousins and uncles and aunty lor. then head to grand aunty house. i love the porridge and noodles that she makes. pure Cantonese style love them.
me on the car


zhe zhe and me (so cute)

raina, me, hao hao, mao jie


family

Then later went to ah ma house. gor gor room for once was clean . so impress but he say tomorrow will dirty again.haix he ar always like that always his room like typoon run across like that anyway everyone was there i miss all my cousins. lois never bring her boyfriend along. haha so then everyone was quite ok la. elton and iz gor both wearing black. and to think i had to think twice bout wearing black


gracie and raina

then late went to aunty hwee inn and uncle abe house sit around . sharon was sleeping she went on duty last night so i did not bother her.then late headed home.

Random pics





second day went to the istana. queue .citizenship check and security check just like clubbing haha nah.


me (fat!!!)

dad and mum aww!



dad and me (fat!!!)



then later percussion kids wesely ah boy and zhen hao came over.i cycle with wes haha had a pretty good talk . he knows my problem i know his too la. trustable youg lad.They had dinner
with us dad got quite excited and cook alot till they cannot eat ah boy was making everyone laugh la . then later everyone sat down and talk lor.ah boy dad came and pick them all up.

third day went to grand aunty there.mum's mother side. oso Cantonese la . then eat and stuf like that . met my distant cousin justin AKA yuan yuan haha been calling him that since young. although he grew tall but i guess he is still shorter than me haha.then later go mum friend house collect loads of ang pow then saw real pineapples growing . really cool came home to cycle and swim . hope to lose weight la

anyway i wore glasses this year . aiya stupid sore eyes la. hope next year i will look prettier ok

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hi blogie

i hope i am doing the right thing with my relationship problem. just leaving it alone until it is time to think.let hope this work and i will be a better person. anyway i am feeling really random today. so i shall do random stuff


Rachel & xinyi❤

need i repeat anymore i love her arrrrrrrrrr. yes she is my darling girlfriend and we have been together for bout 3 years coming 4. thanks for your support girl. CHEN XINYI IS LOVE



Yickting and Rachel ❤(pls ignore karen people)

oh romeo oh romeo. how great thou love shall be. sorry just being random like i said. anyway she is my dearest romeo for bout 3 to 4 years i guess . i love her (or him, since she is romeo). karen is just being a poser there.


Rachel & karen❤

my dearest carrot , although you are quite dense and slow at times and a very good friend to bully i still love you ok . sometimes the thing i talk you would not understand , but i am still thankful you would listen. thanks alot



Rachel and Raina❤

my darling mini me that is half a size smaller but 10 times fiercer .my only bodyguard and my only sister i love cross my heart . we only have each other no matter how bad life seems. i hope we will carry each other through the years ok. I LOVE RAINA LIM JIE YING



Mum and Dad❤

making them piss is my part time duty but being their daughter is my full time job as a lim. apparently i do my part time job more frequent than my full time job. anyway i still remember aunty shanti said that god gave me grace because of my parents that have been praying for me behind my back. i am really glad to have parents that care too much yet let go. thanks mum and dad i love you guys

i can't really remember who else i wanna thank and after reading all my thank you. you guys must be thinking i am lesbian . up to you to see it in watever way . i love the rest of you guys who appeared in my life and made it amazing .To you.(whoever you are you noe) i love you still take care . i hope to meet you in my future.

see although randomness is not in the blood i still manage to stick with it

TOodles
Rachel


-------------

hi bloggie

i feel so confuse now. i hate confusion. i am just so upset about everything that happening between me and him. somehow i can't let go. i have not been truly happy since last year september. it hurts, no one sees my pain. they dun noe anything and they tell me to just get over it. as i stare into the mirror the only thing i see is weakness. when did i become so weak, was it then in sec 2 when i had my first shot. that fella gave me a heart. but i could turn it cold. i did not or is it when he left. i dun wanna run away from these problems, i need to solve them. i can't just cover them out i need a good mind set i need a strong heart. i should turn my heart cold toward my problems, so when i solve them will not scream, i will not cry.when someone you loves leaves you, one part of me died.i guess Rae is no longer there already. now Rachel is really hurting inside.saying sorry is pointless. i pray lord pls take my pain away. Amen

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

hi bloggie

yesterday was valentines day, got present form xinyi girlfriend and celeste.my dearest romeo did not give me . but it is ok i gave her la. hope everyone like my cookies.later on i went all the way down to boon lay to pass my good friends their gifts. hope everyone love them.ls give comment on them thanks

last year bout june, i was looking forward to valentines day. but yet before any valentine day started . it ends in just a blink of an eye. here i am left on the stone with no place to hide with no place to go.you walk on in life without looking back , without shedding a tear. you held your head up high , not a sound , not a cry.right now sitting in a pool of blood, you stole nothing except my heart. i have no more feelings, no more emotions.but yet somehow i can feel the pain. the hurt.i saw couples holding hands. i wish i was in their situation but no guarantees la.

anyway just now went to the gym and scrap my knee

see how bad my scrap knee is

anyway that all for today

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

hi bloggie

my life goes as time flow
yet through which direction i don't know
pains and wounds will not be heal with time
yet a longing of drifting away is wanted

i hope to run away to a place where you would not find me
where i will be hidden by trees and waters, mountains and streams
where i can rest my head without worries
and not be hurt by you

the scars still remains
the wounds look fresh
they reek of blood
they stain my skin

i need something to heal them
i need you
i need you badly
but how much i cry
nothing will be done

let me be on my own for the moment
then slowly if you have the guts
come back to the place
where there lies the two of us

well i think this actually write out my feeling. happy valentines day people


TOodles
Rachel
-------------

hi bloggie

i just came back from a run.i was thinking bout my relationship with him. how will i carry on this pain. sometime it brings hope and joy.yet at times it brings pain and suffering . it hurt sometimes yet it makes me happy. sometimes this emotions make me wanna give up yet at times it makes me cling on to the hope.i don't know what is going on. i took a 2 week break from him .somehow i just feel that it is kind of weird. yet i do feel a sense of relive in me this emotions are playing with me .

i will just leave this problem aside. i gotta sleep soon people.

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

.
hi bloggie,

first day of Chinese new year went to the place that i always remember all my past. it does not haunt me yet it only brings back sweets memories.my grand parents niche. somehow it became a tradition to visit them every Chinese new year. i love them and miss them alots. anyway meet up with my cousins and uncles and aunty lor. then head to grand aunty house. i love the porridge and noodles that she makes. pure Cantonese style love them.
me on the car


zhe zhe and me (so cute)

raina, me, hao hao, mao jie


family

Then later went to ah ma house. gor gor room for once was clean . so impress but he say tomorrow will dirty again.haix he ar always like that always his room like typoon run across like that anyway everyone was there i miss all my cousins. lois never bring her boyfriend along. haha so then everyone was quite ok la. elton and iz gor both wearing black. and to think i had to think twice bout wearing black


gracie and raina

then late went to aunty hwee inn and uncle abe house sit around . sharon was sleeping she went on duty last night so i did not bother her.then late headed home.

Random pics





second day went to the istana. queue .citizenship check and security check just like clubbing haha nah.


me (fat!!!)

dad and mum aww!



dad and me (fat!!!)



then later percussion kids wesely ah boy and zhen hao came over.i cycle with wes haha had a pretty good talk . he knows my problem i know his too la. trustable youg lad.They had dinner
with us dad got quite excited and cook alot till they cannot eat ah boy was making everyone laugh la . then later everyone sat down and talk lor.ah boy dad came and pick them all up.

third day went to grand aunty there.mum's mother side. oso Cantonese la . then eat and stuf like that . met my distant cousin justin AKA yuan yuan haha been calling him that since young. although he grew tall but i guess he is still shorter than me haha.then later go mum friend house collect loads of ang pow then saw real pineapples growing . really cool came home to cycle and swim . hope to lose weight la

anyway i wore glasses this year . aiya stupid sore eyes la. hope next year i will look prettier ok

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

Rachel
I am a little bit of everything, I am never in balance because I desire for the extreme choices all the time.I go along with my mood and do what I want to do. I cry when I am upset, scream when I am pissed, basically my emotions rule over my mood and my reactions, I maybe loud and crazy but I am not good with people and I sometimes hurt them. Even though I maybe blunt and crazy now. One thing is for sure, I am keep changing. -That's me

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