i feel so sick la, recently my life is quite bad, i wanna tell her, but i can't cause we ain't that close anymore.i can't rant it to anyone. i need to tell someone my problem, i feel like crying , yet i can't. i dun feel well anymore, i need to stay strong,yet i need to lean on people.

i need to breathe i feel like throwing my problems into the bin.Then take the ka chings in my bank, fly to paris, stay with a good friend there( i will make one friend first) then i wanna go walk in the streets of paris, see the nightlife, fall in the love with the lights and of course date a few french men haha.i just wanna forget all my problem.

arg, i need somone to rely on for now, i can't tell people who are involve in my problem.arg. i got SS to study as 3 of next month is my exam.

alrighty i got to go

TOodles
Rachel

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LAST NIGHT, I SLEEP, I DREAM OF YOU, AND I DID NOT WANT TO WAKE UP AGAIN.

TOodles
Rachel

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you know it is been a long time since i post like some really emotional post, well i am not emo la.however being a emotional base person, i base alot on my emotions.

Alright bout my day, today was youth anniversary la.we were split up into our new cell. well we went to play games, in the morning, with my cell and lio's cell, lio was not around. i got saboed to play the first game, thanks to my cell leader,you try to get everyone to vote for me , in the end there was a draw , then james never vote, so he vote for me la. Thanks titus. Anyhoo,i actually had to get peanut butter smeared all over my face,Jared sub my last minute, then later have to throw maconroni on his face. we got the most maconroni. haha then later gotta spread jam and stuff o the bread according to colour. we got all correct, the last game was for the whole team to split into guys and girls, the girls and guys must partner. we have got extra guys, so they partner each other.then we as a team needs to eat 30 roti prata. the girls must eat 2 times of the guys. i partner ben. 2 of us were joking with like titus and jared behind la. cause i tie our shoe laces together instead of our feet so easier to walk la i ate 2.then the last pair which was guys had to eat like 10 roti pratas in 3 minutes. so titus and jared had to eat la. well we manage.However i felt that Rainy's team was more pro, roy spires and marcus were like the last then they still sitting and talking and eating slowly, super funny, they were impressive la. i felt like a pig

then service was good, i really love the song you are faithful. wanna learn how to play on piano( lenny you saw this, i give you the chords la). then eat like a pig, could not take it le so go run for half an hour, impressive eh.for someone who has not run for so long. then eat alot of rubbish again la.

now blogging i really enjoy myslef todat, one of the more carefree times in the mids of the hussle and bussle.




Mandy moore -cry
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry


this song reminds me of one person, he thinks crying is something against his nature la. so i am just reminded.Just like the chorus.
i am over and done with that feeling

I laugh when i am happy, i cry when i am sad, i jump when i am hyper, i scream when i am scared.i yell when i am angry . i wanna be truthful to my emotions

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

alright people, it has been a hectic week full of exams, every day i go back to school for exams, well geog and Amaths paper 2 was kinda hard although some others say that they can do well, and get their A1, that make me kinda demoralize la. so i dunnoe but God has a will and things do not work outta his will, i need faith, trust and a tiny bits of Rachel dust, haha.

Alright halloween is coming and yes i can't spend it, cause i got exams to study for oh well, no parties to go to . so to keep everyone happy here is a scary photo haha.


yes my scary pics haha

dun laugh untill you choke ok. for the nerdy photo




ok now for a photo with Patrick star

and now other random photos



see patricks stand out from my pillow haha

happy halloween everyone haha

TOodles
Rachel

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today is the first O levels paper, chemistry paper la. i founbd it rather ok, except that i had loads of faith in god, i did my part, do papers , read my notes.when i woke up this morning, had a slight headache, really wish i could sleep in a little more. after that read through my organic chem notes. when for lunch and for exam. when i entered the exam venue. i felt fainty and still light headed. i felt like blacking out la. then when i look through my questions and started doing them , i prayed really hard. It was at section B that i got a de javu. like i had seen that question somewhere before, in ym dreams i guess. cause that where all the de ja vu happens. anyway overall i put my faith in god and trust and believe.

i will oso be blogging on my last day yeah. alright got to go

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

hi bloggy, it is 4 days to O levels, the combine science kids have practical today, while the C5 kids stay in school and study physics, i sat with suie and she starting ask us questions that no one could answer, and in the end, i was creaming my head of haha, alright it was fun, later met up with the gang, ate lunch, all said practical suck and stuff like that. so went for lunch. and talk to kwang yang bout the Co camp. Yup i am staying over

alright up next is a rather interesting issue, both guys and girls and allowed to post their opinion,but no spamming, opinions are personal and everyone has one different one, no point getting offended over another's opinions.

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him..
If u Don't, he says ur SUPLADA.

-------------

alright now lets have a count down, i think it is 14 more days to o levels, and 10 more days to practical. lucky Rachel does not have practical haha. alright alright i still have to study and my physics still sucks, i have no idea how la.

recently too many things have been going on for me, i just dun feel like me, i feel like someone else, someone else trying to run from myself, i just feel so strangle

i will figure my life out soon

TOodles
Rachel

-------------

dull day in my dull life,today i did something really wrong.

After reading something , i felt my heart tear into 2, my soul vaporize in the fraction of that second,i just felt so depress after school, i know whatever i have done, have hurt you and i know i will not be able to mend that hole again, i know all the"Rachel say" will stop cause they would not have a reason to say" Rachel says you". Rachel will also not say anymore, for some time, for now i am metamorphosing again, i can't let this happen again, i can't, not now, i will isolate myself from you guys to slow down my reaction , i need to in order not to change into someone like her. I am so sorry that i have hurt you all this time, If time could turn back i would not mind, if things were different we might not have this problem, if i stop changing , you would not be affected,If i could put your feelings first, we would not have to face this. There are so many what ifs, i am so sorry.

lets pick up where we left off after our exams, i need to be clear and sane to handle our friendship.Treat me how you want, cause it was my fault. Thanks, i Love you loads, xinyi.

-------------

i feel so sick la, recently my life is quite bad, i wanna tell her, but i can't cause we ain't that close anymore.i can't rant it to anyone. i need to tell someone my problem, i feel like crying , yet i can't. i dun feel well anymore, i need to stay strong,yet i need to lean on people.

i need to breathe i feel like throwing my problems into the bin.Then take the ka chings in my bank, fly to paris, stay with a good friend there( i will make one friend first) then i wanna go walk in the streets of paris, see the nightlife, fall in the love with the lights and of course date a few french men haha.i just wanna forget all my problem.

arg, i need somone to rely on for now, i can't tell people who are involve in my problem.arg. i got SS to study as 3 of next month is my exam.

alrighty i got to go

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

LAST NIGHT, I SLEEP, I DREAM OF YOU, AND I DID NOT WANT TO WAKE UP AGAIN.

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

you know it is been a long time since i post like some really emotional post, well i am not emo la.however being a emotional base person, i base alot on my emotions.

Alright bout my day, today was youth anniversary la.we were split up into our new cell. well we went to play games, in the morning, with my cell and lio's cell, lio was not around. i got saboed to play the first game, thanks to my cell leader,you try to get everyone to vote for me , in the end there was a draw , then james never vote, so he vote for me la. Thanks titus. Anyhoo,i actually had to get peanut butter smeared all over my face,Jared sub my last minute, then later have to throw maconroni on his face. we got the most maconroni. haha then later gotta spread jam and stuff o the bread according to colour. we got all correct, the last game was for the whole team to split into guys and girls, the girls and guys must partner. we have got extra guys, so they partner each other.then we as a team needs to eat 30 roti prata. the girls must eat 2 times of the guys. i partner ben. 2 of us were joking with like titus and jared behind la. cause i tie our shoe laces together instead of our feet so easier to walk la i ate 2.then the last pair which was guys had to eat like 10 roti pratas in 3 minutes. so titus and jared had to eat la. well we manage.However i felt that Rainy's team was more pro, roy spires and marcus were like the last then they still sitting and talking and eating slowly, super funny, they were impressive la. i felt like a pig

then service was good, i really love the song you are faithful. wanna learn how to play on piano( lenny you saw this, i give you the chords la). then eat like a pig, could not take it le so go run for half an hour, impressive eh.for someone who has not run for so long. then eat alot of rubbish again la.

now blogging i really enjoy myslef todat, one of the more carefree times in the mids of the hussle and bussle.




Mandy moore -cry
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry


this song reminds me of one person, he thinks crying is something against his nature la. so i am just reminded.Just like the chorus.
i am over and done with that feeling

I laugh when i am happy, i cry when i am sad, i jump when i am hyper, i scream when i am scared.i yell when i am angry . i wanna be truthful to my emotions

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

alright people, it has been a hectic week full of exams, every day i go back to school for exams, well geog and Amaths paper 2 was kinda hard although some others say that they can do well, and get their A1, that make me kinda demoralize la. so i dunnoe but God has a will and things do not work outta his will, i need faith, trust and a tiny bits of Rachel dust, haha.

Alright halloween is coming and yes i can't spend it, cause i got exams to study for oh well, no parties to go to . so to keep everyone happy here is a scary photo haha.


yes my scary pics haha

dun laugh untill you choke ok. for the nerdy photo




ok now for a photo with Patrick star

and now other random photos



see patricks stand out from my pillow haha

happy halloween everyone haha

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

today is the first O levels paper, chemistry paper la. i founbd it rather ok, except that i had loads of faith in god, i did my part, do papers , read my notes.when i woke up this morning, had a slight headache, really wish i could sleep in a little more. after that read through my organic chem notes. when for lunch and for exam. when i entered the exam venue. i felt fainty and still light headed. i felt like blacking out la. then when i look through my questions and started doing them , i prayed really hard. It was at section B that i got a de javu. like i had seen that question somewhere before, in ym dreams i guess. cause that where all the de ja vu happens. anyway overall i put my faith in god and trust and believe.

i will oso be blogging on my last day yeah. alright got to go

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

hi bloggy, it is 4 days to O levels, the combine science kids have practical today, while the C5 kids stay in school and study physics, i sat with suie and she starting ask us questions that no one could answer, and in the end, i was creaming my head of haha, alright it was fun, later met up with the gang, ate lunch, all said practical suck and stuff like that. so went for lunch. and talk to kwang yang bout the Co camp. Yup i am staying over

alright up next is a rather interesting issue, both guys and girls and allowed to post their opinion,but no spamming, opinions are personal and everyone has one different one, no point getting offended over another's opinions.

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him..
If u Don't, he says ur SUPLADA.
-------------

alright now lets have a count down, i think it is 14 more days to o levels, and 10 more days to practical. lucky Rachel does not have practical haha. alright alright i still have to study and my physics still sucks, i have no idea how la.

recently too many things have been going on for me, i just dun feel like me, i feel like someone else, someone else trying to run from myself, i just feel so strangle

i will figure my life out soon

TOodles
Rachel
-------------

dull day in my dull life,today i did something really wrong.

After reading something , i felt my heart tear into 2, my soul vaporize in the fraction of that second,i just felt so depress after school, i know whatever i have done, have hurt you and i know i will not be able to mend that hole again, i know all the"Rachel say" will stop cause they would not have a reason to say" Rachel says you". Rachel will also not say anymore, for some time, for now i am metamorphosing again, i can't let this happen again, i can't, not now, i will isolate myself from you guys to slow down my reaction , i need to in order not to change into someone like her. I am so sorry that i have hurt you all this time, If time could turn back i would not mind, if things were different we might not have this problem, if i stop changing , you would not be affected,If i could put your feelings first, we would not have to face this. There are so many what ifs, i am so sorry.

lets pick up where we left off after our exams, i need to be clear and sane to handle our friendship.Treat me how you want, cause it was my fault. Thanks, i Love you loads, xinyi.
-------------

Rachel
I am a little bit of everything, I am never in balance because I desire for the extreme choices all the time.I go along with my mood and do what I want to do. I cry when I am upset, scream when I am pissed, basically my emotions rule over my mood and my reactions, I maybe loud and crazy but I am not good with people and I sometimes hurt them. Even though I maybe blunt and crazy now. One thing is for sure, I am keep changing. -That's me

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